Hello... how have you all been? good i'd hope ^^ ... when was the last time i was here? my last journal was about christmas... so... a long time ago now... there was a time when i was here everyday... but those times are over. I had over 1000 messages here ^^ that made me really happy, hehehe. thanx to everyone who's been writing and faving even though i'm not around T___T.

i always though that since i was in the digital arts i'd be getting to do MORE art... not less... when's the last time i drew someting for myself and finished it? when's the last time i did cute fan arts on anything but line paper torn from my binder? when's the last time i colored?? T_T i feel like i'm dieing in a way... if you've ever read "I feel sick" i think that's rather what i'm going through... working and working for other people - trying to work to fit their ideas... and compleatly forgetting about my own artistic self...

I don't even write anymore... i try to... but i never get very far... all i seem to be doing is homework... or thinking about homework... (when i'm not watching anime that is ^^ it's still my love) but i get so disheartened... after all, there's not a lot of love in homework. I mean, i'm doing some fun stuff - it's not like i'm not - after all, it's not like i'm a math or science student - i do get to be creative. it's just... not the same. now i just work and hand in my assignments... and count the days till the end of the semester... and then till the anime convention... since it's the only thing i have to look forward to...

oh well ^___^ i'll do my best to come back some time... maybe i'll put some scribbles and stuff in my scrap book or something. well! thanx again! luvist! vai vai!

-sakura h